I was seeing everything through pain. I would roll out of bed and do my
exercises. I had to do that to work out the remainder of the pain pills. I would
drink coffee and go to the set and plunge myself so far into my work.

-Dick York

This is a photo taken during the in-house review. Believe me! Those books were props. ^^ 

Tuesdays with Morrie

1. Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do.
2. Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it.
3. Learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others.
4. Don’t assume that it’s too late to get involved.

Death should not be embarrassing.
Try to live with dignity, with courage, with humor, composure
Life is series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing but you are bound to do something else.

Something hurt you but you know it shouldn’t
You take certain things for granted, even when you k now you should never take anything for granted.

Love wins. It always wins.

The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn’t work, don’t bury it

So may people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half asleep, even when they’re doing things they think important. This is because they are chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

Chalk

Bob Ong:

Mangarap ka at abutin mo ito. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa’yo ang mga magulang mo, pwede kang manisi at magrebelde… Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ng buhok sa kili-kili… Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili.

Enjoy life! Learn how to play the game.

One Liner

GOD one-liners

Give GOD what’s right – not what’s left.
A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.
He who kneels before GOD can stand before anyone.
In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma, but never let him be a period.
Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the church and have a face lift.
When praying, don’t give GOD instructions, just report for duty.
We don’t change God’s message, his message changes us.

READ THIS!!!

Go to church. God gave us a week; let’s give him back an hour.
Don’t fool yourself by being someone you’re not. Wear your best costume: YOURSELF.
SMILE. It can change the world.
Tears contain antimicrobial agent that helps protect eyes from bacteria. So once a while, try crying, it’s natural.
Boys don’t cry, men do.
It’s hard to be wise when you’re deeply in love.
Your parents brought you up, don’t bring them down.
They say time is a big healer. But that’s a lie. Wounds can be healed when you decide to be cured.

Growing Old

Please be patient, God is not finished with me yet.


We grow old and suddenly we want to hurry things

Don’t commit when you’re not ready.
Don’t keep others waiting endlessly.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don’t bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
To keep yourself warm, buy a jacket. In the long run, it will be less complicated and less costly.
Take care of yourself. Don’t wait for someone to take care of you.

No one completes you except you.


JWhenever I feel like studying, I lie down until the feeling goes away.

Forgiveness

Reviewing the Past.

Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it. Reminisce about it, but don’t live in it. Learn from it, but don’t punish yourself about it or continually regret it. Don’t get stuck in it.

What can I learn from it?What did I learn?
How does it help me right now?

Learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others.
Ask for forgiveness from others. Forgiveness can soften the heart, drain the bitterness, ad dissolve your guilt.

1. Forgive yourself for all the things you didn’t do that you should have and all the things that you did that you shouldn’t have.
2. Get rid of the guilt.

All the work you have actively done on yourself – all the experiences you have had in your life – can be used to maintain your composure. You have the resources. Draw on them.

Benefit from your success.
Learn from your mistake without judging yourself.

Path

1. Find what is divine, holy or sacred for you. Attend to it, worship it in you r own way.
2. If possible, find and develop a spiritual connection and practice that comforts you.
3. Be a witness to yourself. Act as an observer to your own physical, emotional, social, and spiritual states.
4. Find ways to maintain your inner privacy even when your privacy is being invaded by external necessities.
5. Be loving, compassionate, and gentle toward yourself. Befriend yourself. Do not put yourself down or criticize yourself continuously.
6. Let others’ affection, love, concern, interest, admiration, and respect be enough to keep you composed.
7. When you are utterly frustrated or angry, express these feelings. You don’t have to be nice all the time.
8. Get as much help as you can when you need it.
9. Don’t stay preoccupied with your body or your illness. Recognize that your body is not your total self, only part of it.
10. Accept yourself, your physical condition, and your fate as they are at the present moment.
11. Expect that it’s going to be harder and take longer to do things. Be prepared to do things in ways that are very difficult from the ways you did them before.

Monogamy

We want a pact of monogamy to protect us, yet physically, we are programmed to break such a pact.

“All men need just four things: food, shelter, pussy and …strange pussy”
– Jay McInerney the Good Life

Some couples agree to play but stick together. They have this shared fantasy of playing together as long as they can disconnect after the play and be emotionally bound to each other. They have their own rules and they abide by them. What counts is a couple’s willingness to rethink what fidelity means and to be prepared to bend rather than break the rules.

Love through liberation = modern monogamy

Waistline monogamy: touching and kissing, all activities above the waist.
The Clinton monogamy: oral sex does not count
Body fluid monogamy: separated by a layer of latex
The 50-mile rule: don’t sleep with somebody in your own city
Human sex toy: someone a couple brings home to spice up their love-life
Poly-amorous: having multiple partners openly and consensually
Voyeurogamy: you can look but you can’t touch
Trinogamous: being in a committed three-person relationship.


Show me through your actions for words are cheap?

>I can't seem to remember why I have posted this. Hahaha!!! I should have added:

MONOGAMY goes against our basic biology 
(of course, this isn't mine. got this from No Strings Attached.)

Bored

i am caren.

i am thin.

i want to talk.

hear me out!

this is me.

sir mike.

Maybe if I weren't that THIN, noh? Then he wouldn't notice me. LOL! But this is so cliche! It happened long time ago and I had a good time during his lectures. Man, was I lucky? Learning and having fun at the same time. I passed the local board exam and I am nursing (what!?!) I mean I am already a nurse in a decent hospital (unfortunately, I can't and won't say that my pay is decent enough after all the errands and madness sick people demanded. T_T) That was so mean and cold-hearted of me. Blah!

Keep Me Safe

I need somebody to keep me safe while i sleep.

Sick

it's been weeks.
could it be that i am sick?

Last Round for the Road

i am gonna miss my bf... i mean to say my ex. we broke up month ago. it was a hasty decision for me. however, i have no choice. i've been continuosly hurt by the fact that i have to share him with somebody else.

nevertheless, we continued exchanging messages and it really made things worse.. how can i get over him?

shit happens...

i cut my hair short

i decided to have my hair cut this afternoon. i realized i've been wearing the same hairstyle for a long time. i am dying to do this during school. unfortunately, i have to make a bun during those times... finally, i've been emancipated from duty...hehehe... i am free to do whatever i desire with my hair now. ;P
thanks for a lengthy vacay...

Pain and Loving

A friend sent me this. The message isn’t new. But this is a reawakening.

It ain't love that hurts, it’s the absence of it that does. Who says time heals? You don’t get over the pain, you just learn to get along and live with it, through time.

Getting Over an Infatuation

I am working on a plan on how to get over an infatuation. Cruel world. Why am I always into somebody who doesn't even know I exist. I feel so invisible and i don't like the feeling. Here are some tips (or gibberish, whatever you call it) to make life more bearable:

1. more likely, the guy that you want isn't into you. so why prolong the agony? scan the crowd. flirt with eligible bachelors.
2. try to have a make over - personality make over. real males, (i assume) also value the soul...the total self thingy.
3. improve communication skills. i know. it does sound overrated but it is effective (i bet!)
4. give yourself a break. it is not fair that you always do the day dreaming... let the male species salivate over you. a date with your girlfriends might do the trick!
5. carpe diem. i believe that we cannot change things over night. so while you're on the process, enjoy each stalking moment and face whatever obstacle you'll encounter ( you'll learn in time)

I wasting precious time over some worthless garbage...time to start working girl.

Waste Basket

Bury me alive.

Who will care? I am having my self pity in here...

Been striving so hard to be the best. I even gave up going out during friday nights. Now I am wallowing over lost days when I could have went out with my boyfriends.

Who's to blame? It's my choice...

Unfortunately, all the "sacrifices" and tears weren't enough. I have to give up my happiness.

So pathetic...tsk tsk

-Sniff

Litterbox

Saturday

This would have been one of the most exciting saturdays of my damned life.

I got up early to prepare for school to have our paper checked.
Everything's fine, save for the delays and 'shittiness' that occurred. I can't seem to accept that I failed in my toilet training...I am so disgusted to what had happened.

What could have been worse than to see yourself running from a cafe to your house to relieve your bowel, eh? I ran as fast as I could but to no avail...I still shit on my pants.

This is an additional blunder to my already ruined reputation.
I am really in a state of total distraught. This sounds ridiculus and still I have the guts to write everything in here, minus the eeew details. My tummy still hurts. I still have the weird feeling of desire to relieve myself...from the evils of shits!

-Phew